Late

I've only realized in the past couple of weeks that I need to change my ways. Most seniors would have "senioritis" by now, but for some reason, I have the opposite. Ever since my freshman year, I've been a horrible procrastinator. Up until recently, this has changed. It has finally hit me that I need to grow up and become responsible. I've changed, not only in school, but also in life. I have the highest GPA I've ever had. I keep up with my schoolwork (for the most part anyway). I have the motivation to better myself physically and mentally. I've been eating better and have been trying to stay fit. Also, isolate myself from the negative influences in my life. The term that we use is "straight-edge." That basically describes a person who is above the influence. I don't drink. I don't smoke. I don't do drugs. I'm happy. I don't need those things. College is coming up soon. I'm preparing myself for it. Independence and responsibility.

Inches

It's finals week. Only three more days before school is officially over and I can relax. I can look onto the future and prepare for the next step. What remains at the moment is whether or not I want to end the year with the best result I can achieve or to just do what I can to graduate. I currently have an A in all of my classes. All of them can change to a B or lower if I don't do well on my tests. The question is, should I try to get that 4.0 that has eluded me all these years, or should I just relax and begin my summer early? The answer seems obvious, but what is making me hesitate? I have been conditioned to slack off. I've never put 100% in school ever. I don't know how to study, so I just don't, yet I still get a better grade than most. I've found that when I do study, I get a lower average than when I don't. So it remains, should I try or not? What would prepare me for what lies ahead? I'm almost there. Finals. Graduation. Summer. College. It's only inches away.

Rushed Quality

I am a procrastinator. Always have been, probably always will be. I am trying to develop better habits so that I can be an efficient procrastinator. However, I feel that there are many pros to doing work in the last minute. It is different for everyone.

For me, when I am rushed, I tend to do better work. I do not second guess my answers because I have no time to and they seem to work in my favor. For example, my LMU application was due on January 15th at midnight. It was 11 pm when I realized that I hadn't turned it in yet. So, I rushed to type up two decent essays as well as filling out the application.  As a result, I was accepted into the school to my first choice major, Film Production, which is difficult to get into at LMU. In every other school that I applied to for Film Production, I took at least a week to do the application, but was rejected to all of them, even if they were my second choice majors.

When I do things last minute, it also causes my brain to flow with ideas. I remember things that I usually wouldn't remember. I become more creative. I have a wider range or topics to choose from. I call it "Rushed Quality" because it isn't perfect. It works for me though. Yeah.. Just something I wanted to share.

Change

I'm excited for the future, but am I ready?
Most of us are excited for the independence or for the forward step.
I'm excited for the new experiences and going through life steady.
I just want to leave it all behind, but first I need to prep.

Even if it's not that far, it's still away.
An escape from this place is what I need.
Even if only for a day.
A change in pace to plant the seed.

Enter freely and of your own free will

Welcome all to my first blog. My name is Justin, currently 18 years old, and I shall be your guide today. Criticism is appreciated and encouraged! My writing has been labeled as abstract, interesting, and unique. You be the judge. Be prepared for a multitude of genres coming from this writer and once again, welcome. Enjoy.